Where to begin?

Where do I begin?

Lets start with the reason this blog is in existence....I had a well paid job that I was in for 2 years, my position was secure as they needed me and I spent 1 year of it stealing from work. When I quit the job I was found out and was given 5 days to pay back £2000 - I now have 3 days remaining, being a typical Londoner I have an awful credit rating so loans are out of the question and no savings to speak of. It has been decided that the only way for me to get even half the amount I would need to sell nearly all my possesions (should I be depressed that selling my stuff will only bring me £1500?)....there are also a couple of people close to me who will lend me what they can.

How did I get in to this?

Well when I started the job I was recommmended by a friends sister (who is like family to me) and enjoyed it, unfortunately a combination of the enviroment I was in as well as other factors in my life led me to being a very stressed bunny and this is what it has amounted to - one chance not to be arrested by paying this money, lying to people closest to me as well as feeling fear, guilt, shame and generally idiotic.

I felt what I was doing at the time was ok and the false promise to myself of "this will be the last time" seemed believable. I got sucked in this habit and need to learn that I can't keep doing this. I think I may have finally learned my lesson.

So I know what I have done and must face the consequence for my actions....I am glad that I was caught out, it has taught me there are better ways to do things.

Wish me luck for getting out of this and my life back on track!